depression

has come back to haunt me.
i swear it's that school.
god i honestly hate school.
i swore to myself that i was going to be more positive.
i mean I'm trying but not my best.
i finally think I'll be out of math tomorrow though.

one thing right now i cant stand is that i don't have a printer...
well at least it's not hooked up right now.

ugh, so i cried today, didn't think i was going to, but i did.
maybe i needed too? i don't know, only my conscious knows. Lol

uhm... so yeah i feel terrible about the working men, Mark and i need to lay low for a about a week or so.
god how can i stay away from Jose for so long? lol
jkay.
but i mean i can always keep in touch with Carlos (Emily's man haha) on myspace or facebook.
mom doesn't seem to mind that i have him as a friend, it makes me feel good:+)

i need some new musica
i need to make some playlists.

another thing is, CT...
i feel so weird that i have a class with him ya know?
i mean i really do want to be friends and cool again.
maybe Angela will help with that.
she's such a sweetie, too bad i very much dislike one of her bffs.

she's a big nosed bitch.

kay well imma see my dad tomorrow.
I'm kinda excited about it, maybe because i really want a relationship with him.
and i haven't seen him since his birthday (Aug 13th) jezze that's forever ago:+(

i typed so much just now lol.

i think im gonna take a bath.
byebye<3

where to start?
jezze.
well i finally got Internet back, I'm so happy about that! thank you ed!
I've been hanging with mark like non-stop... I'm getting kinda tired of it no offense Marky.

i love Emily Flynn.
i hate high school lol.

Jose, Carlos, and Hernesto got in trouble. it's pretty beat.
i miss them all.

kellyyyylippayyyimisshertoo<3

imma go.

wake the dead

i started school, i had an anxiety attack the first day. grand.

i miss Jose.
I'll talk about that another day...

i had to move.

i don't have a computer atm:+(

Cory is in my SS class. LOVELY.

and some sophomores wanna have sex with me...LOL

i love mark right now.

i feel so horrible.

im so embarrassed..

Jezze, Yvette told Jose about me liking him….
And now I feel like he was just kidding and shit.
But he was like she’s 16…yada…and I was like imma be 17 next month (sep)
And Yvette was like well just get with that shit…
She doesn’t seem to mind the age difference.

HOLY SHIT MAN.

So maybe it wasn’t a joke. But who knows?
Only Jose, I guess.

Kay bye.